It isn't worth the telling because 1
you didn't ask, assumed it there, 2
or didn't care... 3
so this unsent 4
is more for 5
me than it is for, or ever might 6
mean, to you. Your heart, 7
hardened 8
by time, 9
selectively 10
amnesiac, 11
forgets 12
to even 13
wonder. 14
15
Choking 16
on karma, tonight I 17
heard in your 18
familiar voice my 19
own stale tears, my 20
very own forgotten 21
pain, three years in 22
hard won recovery. 23
She, your choice 24
instead of me, has 25
found some other 26
interest, some chance to 27
play, and broken you 28
with her decision 29

You called to share your 30
injury with a soul you knew 31
was true enough 32
to still care 33
in spite of all 34
these stories, all these 35
battles we have 36
fought, have 37
suffered through. 38
You knew, 39
outside of logic 40
that I would 41
listen, knew 42
that I still 43

44
loved 45
you and loved 46
the memory of what 47
we almost (oh, we 48
were so close) 49
built together, 50
what we almost 51
had. You 52
didn't stop 53
to wonder 54
was it 55
wrong (it was) but I could 56
not force a solitary ounce 57
(though justified) 58
of righteous indignation 59
could feel nothing but 60
sorrow for your 61
pain. 62

It was the first time that we had 63
spoken since, when I have not 64
fought to stifle anger, fought 65
to silence 66
bitterness, 67
struggled 68
against 69
remembered 70
hurt and 71
furious 72
tears. 73
The first time in three years, but 74
it didn't come from pity or a sense 75
of wrongs made right. It was the 76


first time we have 77
spoken since I 78
moved on with my 79
life. The only time 80
I've heard your voice 81
since I have been 82
with him. Everything 83
somehow is changed. 84
You spoke about 85
her leaving and 86
I thought about 87
his hands that I 88
never would 89
have known 90
if you 91
had 92

been true enough, been wise enough 93
to stay. I suffered your pain with you, 94
but knew 95
I would 96
never 97
have to feel my own 98
again, would never 99
have to 100
find that 101
he had 102
been 103
anything but true. It was the first 104
time we had spoken when I did 105
not wish that I was still with you. 106

He sees in me all of the 107
things you missed when we 108
were still together he sees 109
beauty, passion, challenge, 110
and is not bored by the 111
fact I'll be true. He touches 112
me like I am fragile treasure, 113
but marvels at my strength, 114
and I have found that in 115
his love is room to grow 116
forgiveness enough for me 117
and enough to give to you.