FAGGOT

By Dee Moore

THIS MORNING I GOT CALLED A DYKE AND A FAGGOT

BY A MAN INFESTED WITH HATE LIKE MAGGOTS

BUT I SMILED AND REPLIED "YOU HAVE A BLESSED DAY"

HELD MY TONGUE AND I PRAYED, HATEFUL THOUGHTS DON'T CONVEY

CAUSE STUFF LIKE THAT DOESN'T GET ME PISSED

IT'S NEVER HIT OR MISS

CAUSE I KNOW FOR SOME FOR MOST IGNORANCE IS BLISS.

MY SEXUALITY DOESN'T DEFINE ME

AND THESE SNAPBACKS AND J'S THAT I WEAR JUST DESIGN ME.

SO THE SLICK ASS COMMENTS THAT COME FROM BEHIND ME,

...ARE JUST INSECURITIES VERBALIZED

FROM LIPS THAT QUIVER, FROM EYES THAT CRY.

AFTER ALL, HOMOPHOBIA IS DEFINED AS : A SELF PROCLAIMED HERTEROSEXUAL INSECURE WITH THEIR OWN SEXUALITY.

OR MAYBE THAT'S JUST MY MENTALITY

SUFFERING FROM THE FATE OF BRUTALITY

AND THE FACT THAT NO ONE UNDERSTANDS MY REALITY.

I SCREAM AND IT'S LIKE NO ONE HEARS

MY CRIES TEND TO ALWAYS FALL AMONG DEAF EARS

I'M DROWNING IN THIS VALLEY OF SORROW DEVELOPED BY TEARS

AND ALL THE HATE, AND REJECTION I'VE HAD TO FACE ALL THESE YEARS.

CALL ME A FAGGOT, AND A DYKE IF YOU MUST

BUT YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW STRONG IT'S MADE ME....TRUST

TRUST AND BELIEVE THERE'S NO LIE IN THIS TRUTH,

MY SEXUALITY HAS MADE ME WAY STRONGER THAN YOU.

TO ANSWER A FEW QUESTIONS THAT I KNOW ARE ON YOUR MIND:

(PAUSE)

-THIS WASN'T A CHOICE

-IT'S NOT A PHASE

-I DON'T HATE MEN

-I WAS NEVER MOLESTED

-I'M NOT ATTRACTED TO ALL WOMEN

-I'M NOT HAVING AN IDENTITY CRISIS!

(BREATHES) WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH MANKIND!

FEAR OF THE UNKNOWN, THE DIFFERENT, THE "NON"NORMALITY

HAS NO AFFECT ON MY VITALITY.

ALTHOUGH, I APPRECIATE THE LACK OF HOSPITALITY

IN ALL ACTUALITY

OUR DAY WILL COME.


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