Numb

By Eyewillnotcry

Here he lies sleeping...
Deep underground...

The grass has grown over...
No trace can be found...

Just a simple plot...
With memories and flowers...

So peaceful and so quiet...
I could sit here for hours...

A place that's so detached...
In a field full of pain...

My mind floods with memories...
Under a sky filled with rain...

Refusing to let emotions show...
Keeping tears locked away inside...

It's the way he brought me up...
Even now I can't cry...

It's all floating around in there...
Yet I keep it all closed...

If I open the box...
I'll feel so vulnerable, so exposed...

That's just not an option...
So it's a choice I have made...

And along with all the others...
Grieving will be forever delayed...

Perhaps this is my weakness...
A sign that I'm not strong...

But don't lay there and judge me...
Don't tell me this is wrong...

It doesn't mean I don't think about you...
Or what you mean to me...

Maybe one day I'll resolve this...
Perhaps then I'll be set free...

Until then you can sleep...
Your body covered in dirt...

Becoming at one with the Earth...
And at peace from all your hurt...


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